Don’t fall off your sofas/bar stools/whatever you may be perched on, but welcome to an actual blog post about my writing journey as advertised in the small print at the bottom of the page.
So, at the end of September I had a publisher request to read the whole manuscript for Prophecy of Innocence, which was quite a big deal for me I have to say. I have spent the last six weeks whilst it was in their possession working on Book 2 which has helped me focus away from what their answer might be.
Last night when I was working on it I thought about how much I love my novel. I don’t mean that in a conceited way, I mean it in a nurturing way. I love my characters and the world I’ve created and the things they get up to and their personalities. So I told myself last night I didn’t care if no one else ever loves this book, because I do and I love working on it and that’s the truth of the matter and what is important.
Then today I arrived home from work to find an email in my inbox.
From the publisher.
I am pleased to inform you that we have now read your work.
Unfortunately your work has areas which are weak..
At this point I steeled myself for the inevitable. I’d prepared for rejection and to be honest with where I am in my head right now, I didn’t feel despondent. Nevertheless I read on as I hoped there might be some feedback on what needed working on. This I had to read twice as the first time I read it I don’t think the words I read were the same words on the page, or if they were, my brain jumbled them up. It said:
…but with good editorial input we believe that this can be improved upon. Happily many attractive features are included in your submission and we certainly enjoyed your style of writing.
So I re-read it and my heart stopped for just a small moment because a publisher said they enjoyed my style. That one sentence just made me feel so happy and that the three years of slog has been worth it. Then the e-mail went on to say…
We now have to consider its potential and I have asked my colleagues in marketing and production to give us their opinion.
I will write to you again with our decision.
First of all I couldn’t believe it. I read the whole thing again. Twice. Then I looked around for someone to tell and hug, but being alone, as it wasn’t yet school run time, I jumped around the room and then couldn’t sit still with the thought that a publisher has said there may be potential.
Now I am not being complacent. If you know me, I hope you know it is not in my nature to be so or to rest on my laurels. This publisher may still pass, but, but, but…here’s the thing. That doesn’t matter so much. It means I can keep trying if it’s not for them. It means I have produced something which someone else might see the same potential and a bit more. It means (I hope) I can get feedback on what to improve before I may need to go back down the submissions route. But more excitingly someone in this book business is reading and considering my work and that means more than anything to me right now.